God Help Me, I Can't Breathe - Topic The People of Pluba Land

Hey,
I'm the real deal. Am I supposed to be flattered that I have a troll? Scratch that, I think I have a pasal of trolls. And one of them claims to call me by using lewie lewie as their name. Well, to the troll named lewie lewie, you haven't answered your PT. Aha! See, you don't really know me at all now do you, little trollies?

Oh yeah, just for the informational purposes:
I'm going to steal crystalk away from that old pit bull man, it's just a matter of time.

Posts: 618 | Location (City, State): King Tut's Tomb | Registered: Sun May 16 2004

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CrystalK

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Hey,
I'm the real deal. Am I supposed to be flattered that I have a troll? Scratch that, I think I have a pasal of trolls. And one of them claims to call me by using lewie lewie as their name. Well, to the troll named lewie lewie, you haven't answered your PT. Aha! See, you don't really know me at all now do you, little trollies?

Oh yeah, just for the informational purposes:
I'm going to steal crystalk away from that old pit bull man, it's just a matter of time.

Posts: 14048 | Location (City, State): Indiana, USA | Registered: Sat September 06 2003

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Sounds like a chemical inbalance to me.... Try med.'s! Doesn't sound like a crazy person just a person in need of a little COMPASSION and UNDERSTANDING to help them through a REALLY rough patch. I think we have all been their to some extent, not quite to this extent, but hang in there and no pun intended....breathe deep breaths, that will get the oxygen flowing better in your body and many other things that can help you feel a little better in so many ways, think good thoughts as you take in each deep breath imagine you are by a babbling stream far away from everyone and feel the wind and hear the water and smell the fall air blowing through the hay fields making the ground appear to dance, ect... lol, it will make you feel better! Keep doing this until you truely feel you are their sitting watching the water and the hay fields, look at the beautiful bright sun and blue skies..... Create in your mind the most beautiful picture you can and "make it come true" in your mind, escape for just a bit and then continue your day.

STRESS KILLS!! You don't want to have a stroke!!

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My Reality: You are doing a wonderful job of expressing your feelings.You apparently already realize that one of the best releases of emotion is accomplished through writings. You seem to have a very gifted talent for words and a unique gift of putting your feelings into words. Ever thought of of writing professionaly?

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I searched for King Tut and I get this crap. What is wrong with you. Get some help immediately! Although you are a very descriptive writer.

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God Help Me, I Can't Breathe
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Trapped inside my mind, gasping for air, the incessant pounding,
are the thoughts of a thousand wrongs and contemplations of decisions
made and decisions yet to be made. Moral fibers tense and tear as I feel
the fear of the unknown, my future, my past, the looming grim reaper
sitting on the back porch of my mind waiting for that one wrong move. My
chest feels tight, my muscles stiff, breaths are short and unsatisfying.
I am at this place again, a place that I fear, a place that breeds pain
and doubt.

Where is this place you ask? Surely I should tell you so you
cannot tread on this mortifying ground of pain, confusion and fear. It is
no physical place, not even a dream, it is the inner synapses of my mind
all day and night, like a textile mill, churning out the fabric of my
life, past and present.

While most days, I ignore its incessant noise, its hollow grinding
of reason and morality. But today, like some days, the churning of a thousand
thoughts and emotions becomes unbearable and makes me lose my selective
attention for that which is external. I embark past the gates of hell into
my own inner sanctum, my past, my present and the uncertain future.

Wrong decisions I have made in my life come rushing to the foreground
like the horsemen of the apocalypse, trampling my thoughts as if they were
rice paper. I am left with the shreds of "what if" and "should I have.."
dripping through my fingers. Family deaths, old relationships and
employment memories come falling down as artillery as I try and dig deeper
into my mental foxhole.

My accomplishments, correct decisions and complacency are here to
help me fight off the demons that occupy my thoughts. Soon they are victims
of the repressed emotions, thoughts and fears that have become the genie
inside this magic bottle of thought. Again I am alone.

But I am not alone, anxiety is here with me. As I feel my blood
pressure rise, I see visions of my girlfriend being raped, my family being
killed, myself dying in a horrible accident. The anger builds. I will kill
the motherfuckers responsible for this. My mind races with visions of me
murduring these invisible foes and the feelings that accompany that rage, I
try and let out a crying scream of rage, only to realize, this is all in my
mind.

Soon later I snap out from that delusion, only to be thrust into
visions of a stale career while everyone around me progresses. I am the
man to pity now. The man who has nothing, is nothing and will never be
anything. Hundreds of ambitious thoughts surge through my mind, I can
feel my legs start to run, my hands poised for work, only to find the
picture of this man is still the same, again, I try to scream only to be
silenced by my own mind.

Imagine a thousand scenarios like these, start them all at the same
time, think about them, walk around in them, have them all echoing your
screams, trapping you inside every single one while still trying to function
as a normal human being.

Welcome to my reality.

Doxiechick

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WOW. As i read thru your post something came to my mind very quickly, but i see someone else beat me to it....and that is, you have quite a talent for writing.

You are focusing on the negative of life. Surely there is something positive .... you mentioned a girlfriend. Isn't that something to keep you afloat?

No two things can occupy a space at the same time. That being said, negative energy cannot be in your mind at the same time as positive energy. You have to make a real conscience effort to keep the positive in so these negative thoughts do not envelop you.

You may even be in need of some meds. No biggie. No one of us here could probably say with any amount of honesty that we've never had some moments of sheer panic and negativity that didn't engulf us to the point of not being able to breathe.

When I am feeling very negative, i find a nice spot...someplace comfy and cozy. And i clear my mind and replace it with thoughts of people that I love and i envision them happy and carefree. Then I envision myself that way too. It really does work. I sat at the edge of a river last weekend for a solid hour just visualizing good things, happy places, and putting my loved ones in nice settings in my mind. Since your gift is the written word, why not try using that medium to express happy thoughts. Write about what you would like life to be like. Write about your loved ones and put them in a positive light.

You know what else helps? Something very simple. When you are out and about and meet new people, take the time at least once a day to compliment someone. Say something very nice about them. By making their day, you in turn will find that it also brightens your own.

I always come out feeling refreshed after that.

Whomever wrote that first post, please come back. I love the way you write.

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"Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation. Your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are." -Dale Carnegie

Posts: 12495 | Location (City, State): Somewhere over the rainbow | Registered: Mon July 28 2003

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WOW. As i read thru your post something came to my mind very quickly, but i see someone else beat me to it....and that is, you have quite a talent for writing.

You are focusing on the negative of life. Surely there is something positive .... you mentioned a girlfriend. Isn't that something to keep you afloat?

No two things can occupy a space at the same time. That being said, negative energy cannot be in your mind at the same time as positive energy. You have to make a real conscience effort to keep the positive in so these negative thoughts do not envelop you.

You may even be in need of some meds. No biggie. No one of us here could probably say with any amount of honesty that we've never had some moments of sheer panic and negativity that didn't engulf us to the point of not being able to breathe.

When I am feeling very negative, i find a nice spot...someplace comfy and cozy. And i clear my mind and replace it with thoughts of people that I love and i envision them happy and carefree. Then I envision myself that way too. It really does work. I sat at the edge of a river last weekend for a solid hour just visualizing good things, happy places, and putting my loved ones in nice settings in my mind. Since your gift is the written word, why not try using that medium to express happy thoughts. Write about what you would like life to be like. Write about your loved ones and put them in a positive light.

You know what else helps? Something very simple. When you are out and about and meet new people, take the time at least once a day to compliment someone. Say something very nice about them. By making their day, you in turn will find that it also brightens your own.

I always come out feeling refreshed after that.

Whomever wrote that first post, please come back. I love the way you write.

I'm still here. I'm very shy and don't really want to post. I just need to write at times. Thanks for your words. You're very nice.

Doxiechick

Grand Pluba

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Well stick around and feel free to write all you want here. I'd love to read it!

I have a strong appreciation for the written word, yes, even dark topics like yours. Sometimes writing about your innermost dark moments can release it from your mind.

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"Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation. Your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are." -Dale Carnegie

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It is extreme, but it is incredible. And to me if they REALLY, truly feel like that and are keeping it all together... judge

My sister can write like that and I have always admired that. She can go into depths like this person has, without the swaring, and she can become positive. My sister has shown me that writing can be a great release. Better to write it down on paper and vent, then to actually follow through with some of the thoughts that are stated in the peace. Very intersting, but feel sad at the same time.
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Stacey, for some people, swearing is just a way of life, it's not meant as offensive. To be truly free, one must be able to express themselves however they deem fit. LOL

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Jonesy,
Hi, i wasn't raggin on the swaring, just saying that my sister doesn't put it in her writing. That's all....She get's her point across in a different way, still as effective but different
Believe me as hard as I try...I am the LAST one that can judge anyone for swaring....trust me.. Getting better though
Stac

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Swearing can sometimes help us release our anger and keep us from being physical, i.e. hitting.

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"Be more concerned with your character than with your reputation. Your character is what you really are while your reputation is merely what others think you are." -Dale Carnegie

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